How a new doctor made me feel safe as a woman with hemophilia

Forty-six. That’s how old I was when I finally accessed the hemophilia care that I’d needed my entire life. I believe the reason it took so long was that I’m a woman.

It may seem crazy to those who aren’t familiar with the bleeding disorder. For years, the misconception that women could not have hemophilia dominated medical, scientific, and educational spaces. We know better now.

In the midst of my struggle to find appropriate care, I attended a National Conference for Women with Hemophilia. There, I met a hematologist who encouraged me to seek help at a hemophilia treatment center with a clinic that specialized in women with bleeding disorders. I heeded her advice, and it changed my life.

Up until that point, hematologists had always minimized my experiences as a woman with hemophilia and doubted my reports of bleeding struggles that were out of the “norm.” For example, I questioned if a certain factor product worked for me, but was dismissed because this issue is considered very rare.

Needless to say, I was worried about meeting a new hematologist. I hoped with everything in me that this encounter would be different. Spoiler: It was.

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There were three things my new hematologist said that created a deep trust and sense of safety. It set the foundation for a fantastic and reparative experience that was different from anything I’d experienced in prior encounters with medical professionals.

First, she said to me, “I believe you.” To this day, when I don’t have to prove I have hemophilia for medical professionals to believe me, I cry out of relief. In all honesty, I cry even more when I’m not believed. That’s a struggle I’m likely to face many more times. To create a trusting relationship with my medical provider, they must understand I’m telling the truth. While I did send my new hematologist photos of my bleeds, she didn’t need them as evidence that I wasn’t making up the injuries.

Second, my doctor was willing to say, “I don’t know.” The first time we met, she looked at me and said, “I don’t have all the answers, but I’m willing to help try to find them.” With that, I knew I’d found a doctor who was a good match for me. My providers don’t need to know all the answers; no medical professional possibly can. I do, however, develop a huge respect for doctors who are confident enough to admit when they need to do research or phone a friend to understand the nuances of my condition. This admission was incredibly comforting.

Finally, she said to me, “I like a good challenge.” I’m a woman with hemophilia who has a short factor VIII half-life (meaning I clear factor VIII replacement products from my body faster than I’m supposed to). How amazing that my doctor saw my case as a challenge that interested her, rather than tossing me aside because my situation was complicated. She told me she took time to go through my file and really think about what was going on, as my case didn’t make sense. It was humbling that she wanted to help solve my health issues. Her retirement was a huge loss to the many patients who adored her.

It may seem simple, but it can be hard for women with hemophilia to find medical providers who believe us, admit when they don’t know something, and are drawn to challenges. I believe it was because I was lucky enough to connect with someone who had these qualities that I’m now living a healthier and happier life.

I am forever grateful.

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