At What Point Should My Son Stop Pushing Through His Pain?
My 16-year-old son, Caeleb, is on summer break. He told me that summer is a little too boring and the school year is a little too much. He is definitely a teenager. Next month he begins summer band, and boredom will become exhaustion.
Caeleb is already concerned about marching band season. He plays the synthesizer in the percussion pit on the field’s sidelines. I asked him why he was so concerned, especially since he won’t be physically marching. Caeleb acknowledged that he is afraid of what might happen regarding his arm pain, a result of living with hemophilia.
When I told him he could opt out of marching band, my son replied, “But Mom, my part is important. They depend on me.” Yes, indeed, my son. I know his heart is fully dedicated to his band program, but I worry that his fear will keep him from completely experiencing the wonder of band.
Caeleb has a couple of upcoming doctor appointments, and I hope he gets some answers for his recurring arm pain. But I’m afraid there won’t be any.
How do I help my son? I’ve been pushing him to keep moving despite his pain. I know from my health struggles that pushing through is painful but necessary. But where is the line? How do I know when to stop pushing?
Years ago, Caeleb went ice skating with his dad. He tumbled on the ice and braced his fall with his hands. After coming home, he kept complaining about his wrist hurting. A few hours of crying and Tylenol meant that something was not right. My husband and I were trying to help him get through his injury. We soon found out his wrist was broken.
Not realizing he had a broken bone is one of my worst parenting moments. I wanted him to push through and for all to be well. I know many parents have similar stories. A sore throat turns out to be strep. A fever turns into pneumonia. The list goes on.
I never wanted my sons to be perceived as fragile or weak because of their hemophilia. Unfortunately, there have been too many instances, especially when my boys were toddlers, when people treated them with kid gloves. All I wanted was for my boys to be seen for their identity and not their diagnosis.
Of my two sons, Caeleb has had more challenges with hemophilia and an inhibitor. Perhaps I have been too protective at times. I know this is true, especially when he needed a wheelchair for over a year. I’ve been pushy as he’s gotten older. Fortunately, a new treatment has improved his quality of life, and doing the things that made him happier came more easily.
I am watching my son grow up into a caring and compassionate young man. I only have a couple more years where being pushy is allowed. For now, I’ll keep pushing, not just for Caeleb to keep moving, but for the doctors to help us get some answers and relief.
That’s what hemo moms do.
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